Imaginary Grace

It's always been our dream

I don't know what fit of nostalgia is making me do this right now, but all of a sudden, I almost feel like writing here.

Was going back through my old LJ for a bit, and realizing how far I've come in the past couple years. No, I don't have it all right, I still hurt, but I'm growing. Looking back, I'm realizing how I had to go through what I did to become the person I need to be. I don't think I could do what I'm doing now if I didn't have some of the perspective that I have, or the experiences I've had.

Yes, I know that I've lost and alienated people, but each of those people has left a mark on my heart, a mark that will always be there.

So, maybe this is a new chance, a new chronicle.

Or maybe I'll just flake off on this. Maybe I need to make myself do something. It would be good for me.
Love isn't about reason

I'll get him hard, show him what I've got

I feel like running a fandom porn battle over Christmas. Would anyone want to participate/at least be able to promote?

What is a Porn Battle? Well, I'm glad you asked! Quinn's Porn Battle would be simple. People come by and leave various prompts on this post, pairings, canon, a random word or lyric or suggestion, and then other people wander through and fulfill them. Simple, right? Right!

I just don't really want to do it if no one'll notice or care.

Pee. Ess. I'm not moving from LJ in case anyone still cares. Lots of personal reasons, mainly. Please don't try to convince me to go elsewhere. /PSA

I had a dream, I dreamed it for you....

So, I love doing crazy things. Awesomely crazy things. This year is no different.

Last year, I had the chance to volunteer at the Quidditch World Cup in New York City. Awesomesauce, right? Right! Well, I'm going back this year to volunteer again. However, as I am broke beyond belief, I need your help. Personally, I need to get out of Connecticut. I need something to do, and the QWC is something absolutely awesome that I want to do.

So! That's where this almost-kickstarter comes in. I need to raise about 100 bucks to make this happen. What is the 100 for, you might ask? Good question! I need money for the bus to NYC, for transportation around the city, and food while I'm there. If I get over 100, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. I might make the rewards better, I might see about getting a hotel/better place to sleep, (more about that in a bit), we'll see how much I get.

This is how it works. Either respond to this post to make a 'pledge' or e-mail me at angelicphoenix [at] gmail [dot] com. Pledges will only be collected if I made the 100 minimum. Don't send money right away, please. I won't take money from anyone. Speaking of money, when this is 'funded', there are two ways to send money. First, the aforementioned e-mail is also my Paypal address. Second, I do take money orders/cash via the mail. I'll send an e-mail to pledgers with all the information. This will either succeed or fail by Hallowe'en. I'll need the money on/around November 1, so if that helps, there you have it.

Now, here's the fun stuff. Like any good kickstarter, there are rewards!

For $1, I'll send you a personal e-mail with a scan of a handwritten thank-you note that I'll write just for you. If you'll be at the QWC yourself, I'll give you the note in person and a hug!

For $2, my Portkey co-host Devyn will draw you a quite bad Patronus, and send it to you via e-mail. I'll also send you a hand-written thank-you in e-mail. 

For $3, I'll hand-write you a very short story and send you the scan via e-mail. Again, if you'll be at the QWC, I'll give it to you in person.

For $5, I'll call you from the QWC and talk to you for a bit, and describe what I see. (Please, only America for this one. My phone plan'll kill me if I call internationally.)

Also for $5, you can choose to have my Portkey co-host Dani send you a postcard with a Harry Potter Doodle! (and I'll scan you a thank-you.)

For $6, my Portkey co-host Becca will draw you a lovely Patronus and send it to you in the mail, as well as my e-mailed thank-you note. (Four available)

For $7, Devyn will write you a short story about Potions class or Pumpkin class. (four available) (And you'll get a scanned thank-you from me)

For $10, you have a choice. I'll send you a handwritten thank-you postcard either of New York City or Hartford. This one will have to be mailed. I don't have time to do -everything-. 

For $11, you can have a skype call with as many of the Portkey staff as we can wrangle. (as well as a thank-you.) You do not need Skype for this, as we can call a telephone. (must be America/Canada)

For $15, you will get a postcard from me (Hartford or NYC) and one from Devyn! (from Michigan)

For $17, I'll write you a four page story, and send you the handwritten manuscript. Again, again, if you're at the QWC, I can give this to you there. (three available)

For $16, Devyn will call you and read a chapter of Bevyn fanfic. (Three available)

For $50, you will get a Portkey Prize Package, details to be announced in a day or so. 

And finally, for $60 (Yes, it's expensive. I'm anti-social as hell) I'll have a meal with you in NYC during the World Cup. (weekend of November 11ish) You provide the transportation, I'm not getting you to the city. This one's limited to three, because I don't have that much time. However, if you can get to Hartford, I'll take as many of these as people want. (not limited to any specific day)

Also, everyone who promotes/pledges/anything will get a hug at the World Cup if you're there. Furthermore, these 'levels' aren't solid. If you really want to give me ten bucks, but you'd rather have a phone call, no problem! 

If you have questions about any of these, please ask! Also, if you can't donate, guys, please, please please just pass it around. Tweet the link, FB the link, Tumblr the link. I just really want to go so badly, and it won't take much.

ALSO, just as importantly, if anyone lives in/around NYC and wouldn't mind me taking up a tiny bit of floor from the night of November 11th through the morning of the 14th, please e-mail me at angelicphoenix [at] gmail [dot] com. Please promote this as well, guys. I need somewhere to sleep, and I doubt I'll get enough of this money to get a hotel.

Keep checking back here, I'll update this with how much I'm funded!

I am 55% funded. --- I'm pulling into Bridgeport, CT!
I am Omnian

This was never the way I planned, not my intention.

I realized earlier that even though I made an LJ post, it probably isn't going to be in anyone's flist because I forward-dated it.

Not to mention, I kinda feel like I should explain it more. I want to go to the Quidditch World Cup I went last year, volunteered the entire weekend and frankly, had the best time that I had all year except for being at the Capitol.

I need this, guys. I need it more than I can say. I'm trying to push the link around, and hope that people can spare a buck or two.

If you can't help, I completely understand. The economy sucks, and the world kinda sucks, so I'm not holding my breath too hard, but it would be such a gift if I can go. I need out of Connecticut. I need to be able to just go and do something and have fun. I've been crying way too much lately, and I need to know I have something to look forward to.

Thanks, guys. Also, if you can't help, if you could pass the link around on various social media/LiveJournal. That would be so beyond awesome.

P.S. If you/anyone you know is in NYC, I really do need a place to stay while I'm there. Unless my getting-money explodes. If you could pass that around too. Thanks.
Teddybear Mark

I was sure that all I wanted was a life like the movie stars led

List three books that have changed your life:

Ender's Game - Orson Scott Card. (No matter what I now think of him personally or as a writer, or as anything, I cannot deny the affect this book has had on my life.)

Rent - Jonathan Larson (Every musical has a book, or the story that is brought out through the lyrics. I know this is a stretch, but Rent's changed my life so much, that I have to say it's a book that changed my life.)

The Secret Adversary - Agatha Christie (I don't know if this was the first Agatha Christie that I ever read, but it was the one that stuck with me.)
Just Breathe

How do you leave the past behind?

If you could travel back in time, what would you tell your 10-year-old self?

Hi, Erica.

It doesn't get better, so get used to it. Disconnecting helps, and the sooner you can learn that, the better.

Also, you know how you think girls are cute? Yeah. Stop trying to ignore that. It's not as bad as you think. You won't lose your faith, it'll just change. Hold on to that bit of faith you have. You'll need it one day.

The easiest road isn't really the right one, but you'll get to where you want to be one day. Yep! I've worked on a dig, worked in a legislature, and people actually like me. Haven't got to Egypt yet, but I'm sure we'll get there.

Try to always know that there's a reason for everything, even the stupid little things that don't seem to make sense.

Oh, and one last thing, just please ignore that Tylenol. Thanks.
Sing and Dance

Food of love, emotion, mathematics, isolation!

I'm no promoter. I'm really not. However, this is just cool.

This is Kim. (Who took a special picture just for me. Heee)

Kim! YAY.

Kim Boekbinder, otherwise known as The Impossible Girl, is crowdsourcing a tour. Let me explain. This is an independant artist who loves connecting with her fans. She's using Kickstarter, an online creative donation site, to pre-sell her tour. This is awesome. It means that singers won't lose money, because they can tailor their show to the people who wante to come.

Kim, also, loves connecting with her fans, and sharing her music with people. She made an appeal to bloggers (yeah, I'm not exactly a blogger, but I do write, and people read, so there.) to post about her and her music, and she responded to questions that we asked of her! So, to get a feeling of who she is... my questions and her answers:

1. What draws you to crowdsourced/internet funded tours?

I realized one day that this thing we call "crowd funding" is how all concerts work. Musicians need crowds to come to shows and pay a little bit of money each to make the show happen. Once people get to the level where they are playing in stadiums they'll cancel the tour if tickets don't sell enough. My model of pre-sold shows is unique at my level, and because I am being so upfront about the whole process. I don't think of my audience as a passive thing, an audience is a vital important part of my career and my live show. I'm just bringing the audience into the the process of putting on the show. Instead of just showing up to experience the concert, you get to be there for the whole process, from concept to execution.

2. What was your favourite part of your New York show?

The whole thing! Just that I finally got to do a big wonderful show in New York City made me so happy and grateful. I feel so lucky to have supportive fans who really get what I am doing and who want to see me succeed, as well as just enjoying my music and live show.

3. If you could sing in any city ever, where would you go?

I want to go everywhere. I'd love to go to St. Petersburg Russia again. But mostly I just want to tour and tour. I'll go wherever people want me to go - this pre-sold touring model means I can set up ticket sales in any city. Right now I'm focussed on these ten, but next time I'll expand.

So, please, especially if you're in/around Hartford (I might get a chance to be a merch girl, and you know how much I love to merch!) check out Kim's tour! She's an awesome woman with awesome music. Even if you're not around Hartford, go see her near you! Really. You won't be disappointed. She's awesome.

The tour: San Diego, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Seattle, Portland (OR), Minneapolis, New Orleans, Boston, HARTFORD, DANGIT, New York City

P.S. Getting a hurricane. I'll be fine.

Wake me up when September ends.

August and September suck.

Am broke again, as usual wondering where food's gonna come from, feeling like I've alienated everyone who used to care about me because I'm an ass, and just... I don't even know.

I miss people. I hate that I've lost some amazing people through.. I don't even know what, probably mostly just being an asshole.

... this isn't even coherent.
Bearing Witness

Dynamite with a laser beam

What's your favorite line from a song, and why?

What was it about that night? Connection in an isolating age! For once the shadows gave way to light, for once I didn't disengage.
~ What You Own, Rent

It's shaped my life in ways that I don't even know how to explain. It... yeah. Thank you, Jonathan Larson. I don't know what I would have done without Rent.